Masquerade

I opened WordPress just because I want to post a random rambling and instead I found one of my old posts here. And it struck me how easy and effortlessly (it seems) for me to write down the things I wrote. Like it just came out the back of my head and my hands did not have the trouble to express it all out.

But lately I have faltered from such things.

I was always good at cheering myself up. If someone asks me what is it that I’m really good at, I think that would be the answer. I have the ability to pick myself up and post a learning lesson about it. Only lately, I have not had any valuable lessons to learn. Life goes on and it gives you this… piece or equipment to run and I do it like I always do. But along the way I forgot to pick up the important stuff.

I was really impressed with what I wrote. I mean… call me cheesy or whatever, but it’s true. What actually happened to me that I have now lost that voice?

I always tell myself that what I’m good at, it’s either not really needed in life (Who the hell needs someone who can do accents but cannot act? Or someone who knows tunes but doesn’t know hot to play the frickin’ piano? Or any instrumental piece for that matter?) or it only has a good use for myself. Which is… pretty much the same of saying that it’s useless. For other people.

If I’m going to do things right, then I have just found my new year resolution.

You have to take matters to your own hands and not wait around for someone else to give you a divine message. Sometimes a divine message can come from yourself.